Like you I have always had two sides to my nature; the material comfort side and the non material idealistic side; they have – always – been at war with each other.
I have created a web-site based on experiences I have had from which I have concluded i can draw a religion, \\\”Buddho-Darwinism\\\”. the rationality of Darwin against religions and the compassion of Buddha against violent selfish application of science. A blend of survival and reincarnation. If you woUld like to read some of it please try www.life-class.com.